crybaby ning
After seeing ning's tears fall yet again for the 2nd time during training, many of u muz be wondering y ning likes to cry so much ... .... ....
if u actually think im trying to gain sympathy or wadever im gonna dislike u! in fact its pretty embarrassing.. but im almost helpless when it comes to controlling tears. still, thanx for the concern showed that only makes me wanna cry even more.. & also to those who are patient enough to help me get stunts right.. i appreciate all that..
Blame my super active tear generators.. troublemakers that haf been with me for 19 yrs already... not only is the uncontrolled flow of tears generated embarrassing, worse still it hinders training from being smoothly conducted.. for which i hafta apologise.. sorry for all the hold ups & stuff.. felt kinda stressed up the past few days (wad kinda stress u might ask, since its the hols now. juz some rubbishy stress. nevermind abt that. those stress cells of mine conquered me then..) & training has added on to it. also really dislike the feeling of failing to properly execute simple stunts well & falling all over for which i think im most proned to doing.. cant seem to remember wad ive done b4 & repeatedly doing them wrongly.. damn frustrating.. dun like to be urged to do conditioning too.. yes im really lazy if u still haf not realised it.. =X but that aside, everyone seems to be improving & is very focused in cheering.. that's very good.. esp ai hui & sumiko.. they’ve so much more guts than me even though they're new.. it may be quite off to say this now esp when there's performance coming up & most of u are geared up for it, but i still need to search for something more abt cheer that will propel me to work much harder for it, be it the satisfaction from cheering, or sheer passion for it.. or perhaps even enjoying attention from the audience.
being a dancer, i certainly enjoy performing & attention gained during the mere few minutes on stage is really damn satisfying & shuang.. since cheerleading is also kinda performance-based, i still might enjoy the attention.. but the major difference is that lots of courage, determination & team spirit need to be incorporated, not forgetting a high entertainment value too.. it takes so much more than juz plain performing and getting attention.. there’s so much more that i gotta build up on & learn from the rest of the determined cheerleaders.. so much to learn…
Anyway, y am i appointed treasurer?! u guys r kidding me, no?
3 comments:
why the words can change colour one? i also wanna change colour...
Even when you are in tears,
If you don't stop trying,
one day you will succeed.
If you don't stop finding,
one day you will find the answer you need.
As long as you don't give up.
Our shoulder will always be there to be stepped on. <--- Pain...
*sidenote - KJ i think you can change the font colour or even font by maybe spending more time to blog more haha
erm. we're not kidding you sweetheart. Once the payment for our performances come in there'll be invoices, bank accounts and bills to handle. =P
(feels a strong 'sha qi' from far)
okok!! I shall be nice..
I'm glad that you have found a sense of orientation in cheer and are working towards it. Be confident of yourself and you will be surprised what you can achieve when you believe in yourself...and the people above(top flyer) , around (spotters) and below (bases) you.
=)
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